Fucking lessons.

I'm listening to the same song that Swedish girl I met in Bali told me about, touch me I'm going to scream part II, by My Morning Jacket. I love that song. Might be because it’s so downer or depressing, I don't fucking know. Whatever. I can’t fucking learn my lesson. 

Keep falling for the same kind of girls. Why the fuck I crave affection so bad. Why the fuck I want to be hold, fall asleep next to a girl, cuddling her, hugging her, feeling her. Why? Why? 

It’s 11.06pm, did a booze cruise today and instead of it being a happy history I’m actually not happy about it. Had a good time, drank lots of alcohol and saw beautiful beaches. The thing is like I did with “friends” people that probably won’t remember or care about me as soon as they go back to their countries. That’s why it’s really hard to make friends traveling, you don’t really know if they’re friends for life because that’s what they normally say. Yeah man, I’ll be there for you forever. What does that even mean? 

Fuck everything. 

I just really hope the Welsh girl is by my side when I wake up. She’s fucking adorable but still, feelings in public, oh no. Cares too much about what other people think. 

My wound is almost healed up by the way in case anybody is wondering. 

Carpe diem I guess...

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Thailand Update.

Hey everybody!!

It’s been quite a while since I write for you guys but that could just mean 2 things, I’m either dead or I’ve been having a blast. A crazy blast pretty much. This country is fucking nuts. It reminds a lot of Mexico back in the 90’s, you can do anything, get anything you want as long as you have money in your pocket. Viagra, valium, cialis, morphine, any fucking drug you want you can get it. I’m not into anything but if I were I would be a really happy addict here. So my trip started in Bangkok, arrived to the airport and everything seem pretty normal, just a regular airport, of course with a lot, A LOT more Asian people. Took the train and made it to the hostel, as I was walking on the street to the hostel there’s a lot of bars with a lot of Thai girls, this was around 11am by the way, and all of them try to grab you and convince you to come into their bar. I went to the hostel, dropped my bag, took a quick shower and head to get some food and a beer. So there it goes, the lost westerner walking into one of those bars full of Thai girls, one comes and sits next to me, trying to make chat on me and of course she wanted me to buy her a drink, I was like fuck that. Ended up getting horrible food and paying a lot for it, now that I know I could’ve paid a 1/5^th of that for a lot better meal and with no uncomfortable company.

Well, I spent a couple days in Bangkok, had my share of fun with the backpacking girls, then met this cool ass Canadian guy from Quebec and went to an island called Koh Phan Ngan in the gulf of Thailand in the southeast. I spent a couple days there just meeting more people, more backpacking girls, having my share of fun, driving a scooter around the island, seeing beautiful beaches and also bitches haha. There was a full moon party there that it was like spring break in Cancun but 10x better and crazier. Then from there I was supposed to travel with this 3 Dutch girls and one German girl, well the German girl liked me but I liked her Dutch friend and lets just say I’m in another island now with the Dutch girls and no German girl. Kinda fucked up but oh well, you all now I’m not a really nice guy sometimes. So, I’m in Koh Tao now, another island around an hour away from the other one with the Dutch girls and from here I’ll be traveling with the Dutch girl. We’ll see how that goes. 

All I’ve learned from this trip till right now is you have to look for what makes you happy, you, not anybody else and I can say I’m pretty fucking happy right now. Still got some stuff I need to take care of back in the States but honestly I don’t even know if I want to ever comeback, I’m pretty happy here in my bungalow with the ocean outside of my door sleeping next to a pretty Dutch girl.

Oh, she loves sex as much as I do as well.

Here we go....

According to the flying map in the computer I have around 3 hours left till I land in Bangkok, its been a relax and nice trip, first flight to Chicago I just work on filling my IPod with new music, chit chatted with this girl that just graduated from art school and omg, she can draw, she was doing the drawing of a man face and it was amazingly stunning to the eye. Second flight from Chicago to Abu Dhabi was an eye opener, that’s when it hit me that I’m going to a complete totally different place. A lot of Muslims in the plane. Guy sitting next to me was a Muslim from Abu Dhabi and he was pretty cool, had some issues understanding his broken English but I guess that’s how some Americans feel with me.

Oh, here’s the best part of this last couple weeks, I met somebody, yeah, right before I left Fort Worth, bummer right? But that just gives me a reason to come back! She’s 24, loves doing yoga, is working on her masters and she is so beautiful, has an amazing body and a great personality. She’s super shy sometimes but then she opens up and both personalities are amazing. 2 days after knowing her I already told her I love you and she said it back. Do you think you can love somebody in such a short amount of time? I think you can, it’s a different kind of love that the one a couple that have been married for years have but it’s still something coming from the heart. She makes me laugh and smile all day and makes me want to be a better man; I always look for somebody that makes me want to be a better person.

I was originally doing this trip to comeback as a better person just for myself but if I’m a better person there for I should enjoy somebody like that next to me and I think that’s her. Oh people, also, tip for you all, FLY ALWAYS ON ETIHAD AIRWAYS, two words for you… open motherfucking bar. Dewar’s, Red Wine, Heineken, Whiskey, Vodka, 14 hour flight? Let’s put some booze in it and make it a good one haha.