Enjoy.

I'm lying next to her, she's a beautiful mess. Aren't we all? I'm pretty stoned and a little bit sick because of all the free alcohol this city has to offer. I love it here. I fell in love with this city, it has taken my heart and if I don't stop it, my body as well. I want to settle here for a couple months, have what you called a "regular life" but at least stop drinking everyday, help the locals someway, teach them english, manners, education in anything, sex, drugs, alcohol.

She has been sucked by this city as well, I just don't want to end up drinking like she does. Or working in the same environment with the same kind of people, backpackers that found it was easy to stay here and get drunk every night. Literally, at your job interviews they tell you to don't get too fucked up but it's still like considered normal. I don't want that, I don't want to show up to teach kids all hungover, that would just be irresponsible from my part, teaching them all the bad ways we are in the western world.

Anyway, I just wanted to share some thoughts.

Smile people, smile. Get interest in other people's lives, you might make their day.

Carpe the fucking diem.

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Fucking lessons.

I'm listening to the same song that Swedish girl I met in Bali told me about, touch me I'm going to scream part II, by My Morning Jacket. I love that song. Might be because it’s so downer or depressing, I don't fucking know. Whatever. I can’t fucking learn my lesson. 

Keep falling for the same kind of girls. Why the fuck I crave affection so bad. Why the fuck I want to be hold, fall asleep next to a girl, cuddling her, hugging her, feeling her. Why? Why? 

It’s 11.06pm, did a booze cruise today and instead of it being a happy history I’m actually not happy about it. Had a good time, drank lots of alcohol and saw beautiful beaches. The thing is like I did with “friends” people that probably won’t remember or care about me as soon as they go back to their countries. That’s why it’s really hard to make friends traveling, you don’t really know if they’re friends for life because that’s what they normally say. Yeah man, I’ll be there for you forever. What does that even mean? 

Fuck everything. 

I just really hope the Welsh girl is by my side when I wake up. She’s fucking adorable but still, feelings in public, oh no. Cares too much about what other people think. 

My wound is almost healed up by the way in case anybody is wondering. 

Carpe diem I guess...

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Fuck it

Yeah fuck it, decided to open up a little bit more. Still will remain anonymous, it's mostly to don't hurt people.


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Fuck traveling like a local.

After a day of dealing with Thai people at the bus station, on a bus that was supposed to be at 8.30am that suddenly got cancelled, why? I don’t fucking know. But ended up on a minivan all the way to Trat that is like an hour away from the Cambodian border, right now I’m on another minivan from Trat to the border. Will I make it to Sihanoukville tonight? Fuck I don’t know, I don’t even know how you make it after crossing the border. 

I have like no money, don’t even know how I will pay for the ferry tomorrow, I’ll find a way, hopefully… I have good friends in Koh Rong and I’m sure they would never let me down. 

So, I crossed the border, sitting in a private taxi right now driven by a 20 year old Cambodian kid with 2 older ladies sitting in the back. So, yeah, the border. Thank god I have a diplomatic passport, instead of charging me $37 dollars I only paid $17 and they also gave me a 3 month visa, WTF Cambodia, you’re fucking awesome. Of course, after crossing the border, first of all it’s pouring down, so I wanted to hitchhike but it was 7pm when I crossed and raining so… nope. This taxi kid wanted $70 dollars, WTF, I ended up just paying $20. So at the end of the day I ended paying almost what you pay for the bus all the way from Sihanoukville to Bangkok but oh well, another crazy experience to tell. 

Bangkok was pretty fun though, I think this is the time I finally liked it. A couple different reasons, well I arrived on the train with really short money, then I hate asking for money but this beautiful dutch girl helped me with some and then I met up with my friend, well my “friend”. We met through tinder around 1 month and a half ago but we never met in person until when I arrived in Bangkok. Gorgeous Canadian girl that teaches english to kids and hates kids haha, oh and awesome in bed also, so I think that’s why I had such a good time. Stayed at her place, had an amazing time with her and then last night some friends from Mexico arrived so I got to see them, I don't know if I will see them again but we had a really fun night. Kinda regret it this morning because I was fucking hungover as hell on the minivans. Damn you 20 baht shots (less than a dollar). 

Well, tomorrow I should be back in Koh Rong, where it feels like “home”. Most of my friends are still there so I'm pretty excited about that. It’s rainy season but fuck it, I don't even have a phone, no camera anymore, just my computer and fuck no, it won't get wet. I'm fucking starving, this kid is playing awful Cambodian music and my headphones only work in one side haha. Thanks Canada… well, at least she gave me headphones, better these ones that only work in one side than the other ones that don't even work.

I've been thinking a lot these last couple weeks that I think I’m almost done with traveling, would like to settle somewhere for a while and learn something, like university or get a good job somewhere else. I'm not going back to the States or Mexico, fuck that. 

So, I need to figure out a plan. There’s a couple options so need to pick one but also I'm meeting somebody really special in less than a month so we'll see how things go with her. That’s pretty much the only “appointment” I have right now. Really looking forward to it but also a little bit scared. I think I learned my lesson, be completely fucking honest since the moment that you feel something different with somebody. Fuck it. I'm pretty honest with everybody else but not a lot with girls because I don't want to hurt them. 

Made to Sihanoukville, high as fuck because some Israelis. And sleeping in a hostel, I hate hostels but actually this bed is pretty comfortable. Still, I want to sleep naked.

Thailand Update.

Hey everybody!!

It’s been quite a while since I write for you guys but that could just mean 2 things, I’m either dead or I’ve been having a blast. A crazy blast pretty much. This country is fucking nuts. It reminds a lot of Mexico back in the 90’s, you can do anything, get anything you want as long as you have money in your pocket. Viagra, valium, cialis, morphine, any fucking drug you want you can get it. I’m not into anything but if I were I would be a really happy addict here. So my trip started in Bangkok, arrived to the airport and everything seem pretty normal, just a regular airport, of course with a lot, A LOT more Asian people. Took the train and made it to the hostel, as I was walking on the street to the hostel there’s a lot of bars with a lot of Thai girls, this was around 11am by the way, and all of them try to grab you and convince you to come into their bar. I went to the hostel, dropped my bag, took a quick shower and head to get some food and a beer. So there it goes, the lost westerner walking into one of those bars full of Thai girls, one comes and sits next to me, trying to make chat on me and of course she wanted me to buy her a drink, I was like fuck that. Ended up getting horrible food and paying a lot for it, now that I know I could’ve paid a 1/5^th of that for a lot better meal and with no uncomfortable company.

Well, I spent a couple days in Bangkok, had my share of fun with the backpacking girls, then met this cool ass Canadian guy from Quebec and went to an island called Koh Phan Ngan in the gulf of Thailand in the southeast. I spent a couple days there just meeting more people, more backpacking girls, having my share of fun, driving a scooter around the island, seeing beautiful beaches and also bitches haha. There was a full moon party there that it was like spring break in Cancun but 10x better and crazier. Then from there I was supposed to travel with this 3 Dutch girls and one German girl, well the German girl liked me but I liked her Dutch friend and lets just say I’m in another island now with the Dutch girls and no German girl. Kinda fucked up but oh well, you all now I’m not a really nice guy sometimes. So, I’m in Koh Tao now, another island around an hour away from the other one with the Dutch girls and from here I’ll be traveling with the Dutch girl. We’ll see how that goes. 

All I’ve learned from this trip till right now is you have to look for what makes you happy, you, not anybody else and I can say I’m pretty fucking happy right now. Still got some stuff I need to take care of back in the States but honestly I don’t even know if I want to ever comeback, I’m pretty happy here in my bungalow with the ocean outside of my door sleeping next to a pretty Dutch girl.

Oh, she loves sex as much as I do as well.

Another common day. At least for me.

Well, I just started this, always thought about opening a blog but I guess I never really had the balls, or time pretty much to do it. I was born outside this country, I'm white, brown hair, 5'10' and in good shape (I just separated the military so that comes with it), and I'm currently stranded in North Carolina, well, in Fayetteville to be exact, cuz I would love to be stranded anywhere else in North Carolina. This is probably one of the worst towns I've ever been in my life, and trust me, I've been all over the place.

I just met the most awesome girl I've met in my life, well in my short life I guess, I'm 24 by the way, but I don't know, I love her, at least that's what I keep telling myself, she makes me the happiest guy everyday or I think I am the happiest guy ever? See? So many questions, so few answers. That's my life story, always questioning everything, why this, why that? Why can't life be a lot more simple, just be happy, that's all I want, do I?

What did I do today? I woke up early, as usual, because the light on her room wakes me up and it's hard for me to sleep with sunshine in my eyes, so first thing I did was tried to cuddle her or well, lets be honest, tried to get her in the mood for morning sex, and as usual, didn't work, she just doesn't like morning sex, I don't understand why, who doesn't likes morning sex? Or maybe I like it too much?


I'M JUST ANOTHER WEIRD GUY.

AM I?....