Let's keep writing baby!!!!

(I wrote this like a month and a half ago)

Life is good! Finally! Still broke but oh well, who cares! I can pay for a roof, food and drinks! What else do you need, it's just uphill from here.

What has happened in the last couple of months? Got into a "relationship" with someone that was kinda breaking me down, never be with someone that it's ashamed of you, that won't invite you not even to their house, introduce you to friends and not even say nice things to make your day better.
She might be a nice person, but now that I look back at it, fuck, never really a compliment or anything. It was more of a joke that anything else.

Well, still working as an English teacher.

UPDATE!!

NO MORE TEACHING ENGLISH!!!

So, I score an amazing job, I'm working as a tour leader all over Vietnam, and yeah, it's better than what it sounds, I get paid to take people North to South and have a blast with them, no, I'm not a tour guide, because we get guides wherever we go, I'm a tour leader as I'm in charge of the whole tour. I just finished my first tour yesterday and it was a blast, we party, we do cool activities, we see amazing sceneries and meet awesome people.

Such a blast. I'm one lucky guy.

On the other side, personal life, yeah, because I know that's why you all are here, to see what's happening deep inside, with my private life, well, I kinda dated someone on and off for a couple months, amazing person, I think I hurt her, as I usually do, I tried to said I'm sorry but oh well, she won't take an apologie and also, I wish she would've understand that we weren't together a while ago. So whatever happened was for the best. I hope she is okay.

Well, as I normally say, carpe the fucking diem :)

Duck people

There's a song by Devendra Banhart called duck people, also Harry Baker has a poem about paper people, that was my inspiration for tonight.

Duck people, I like duck people,
duck people are nice, they come around at night,
they like to drink latte and sit around the cafe.

Sometimes they're out and about,
having fun and drinking wine.

They like to have fun and watch funny shows,
if you hang out with us, you might wanna join.

We wear black shoes and funky shorts,
hippie pants and green hats.

Duck people, we can all be duck people,
singing around, preaching the choir.
We don't have to get drunk to be able have some fun.

If you give them a smile, they might lend you their pants,
if you show them your heart, we will give you a hand.

Maybe it's too harsh, suddenly not right,
but oh well, at the end of the day, no one else cares.
And please, always remember to
carpe the freaking diem.

Smile.

Thoughts, analyze and then realize.

So once you're debating, you don't know if it means that you're entertaining or
just going with the flow, that's the point, to learn to let go.
Learning to survive, learn to apologize, trapped in a golden cage and then
out, nothing else, survive dude survive, at the end of the day you're by yourself
you have nobody else. Nobody else to apologize to, to say hello to, to say I love you too...

What it means to be trapped in this city, stuck in here, concrete jungle with worst than jungle law.
Is there even rules, is there even something going on? I don't know, I'm losing hope.

Carpe the fucking diem.

Phoenix

Who is he, how does he dies and comes back to life? Survive, let's survive, lets come back to life together, die, come back alive.

What about the F-word?

Fuck this, fuck that? That's all we say right now. Does anyone cares about you? Nobody gives a single fuck, at the end of the day we're all here by ourselves.

I wish people would care more, would try to help each others more.
I get out of my way all the time to help people get by... is there ever going to be a payback? I don't know, I don't care. If I can make anyone smile then my job is done.

I'll be better off I think.

Smile you cunts.

Carpe the fucking diem.

Waking up.

Wake up, workout, work, love, sleep. Repeat.

This last days, a blur in my head. Seeing the same things, thinking about past lives.
Time passes by, it won't stop. Carry on, move on, stop.

I won't let go, I will hold on. When you finally find hope, fight for it.

I feel like she talks through me. Sharing pain, sharing thoughts, emotions.

Think.

Think, think, think once, think twice, think three times, Why don't you realize? Why are we all full of a negative life?

Smile, not point about. Why do you get sad?

Why don't you just smile? Let it go, drop it out.

I love you, can't you understand? Cannot you realize?

Smile babe, smile...